Done. Fucking done

  June 17th, 2018 by NumbExhaustion

So I want to die. Like honestly. I’m so done with everything. Mom’s banning me from watching Criminal Minds (Because it’s “corrupting my mind”) and my parents took all the locks off my doors and I really just want to cut. I’m tired of living here and I’m already sick of summer break. Goddddd. Just frustrated.

I can’t figure out my gender either. Like I thought I was agender but then what if I’m FTM trans? I dunno. I’m just realizing this now too. It’s not something I ever knew from a young age. Is that even possible? Also, can you be FTM trans without bottom dysphoria? cause I know it requires dysphoria of some sort and I have chest dysphoria but not really bottom? Ugh. I feel like I’m faking it.

My dad is open to it but also thinks that I need to focus on therapy right now and he thinks it might change in the future. My mom is a conservative Christian when it comes to LGBT things and doesn’t even believe me, saying I’m reaching for the easiest solution/answer.

Just fuck.

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