I miss talking to you. You were my emotional band-aid. I wish I could tell you about how I feel and what happened too me. I wish that I could have you in my life again. I hate that I always pull myself away and decide against it. I hate that I miss you, I know it is not the right thing to do or have moved on. I miss you. You were a good friend and I miss you. I loved you and I still do in some way. You could make me feel better but also hurt me the most. I just miss you. I need you to know I am sorry. No I am not wanting a relationship with you, not now , not ever. It hurts to say that.. I can’t remember why I love you sometimes. I just do love you and I do care about you and I do not want a relationship with anyone right now. I am broken. I am never going to be good enough for him or you. I lost you a long time ago, but I miss my best friend. I hate how broken I am and how un fixable I am. I feel like a worthless waste of space.