Figured it out

June 12th, 2018by Failure143

Today, I realized I was nothing but a money bag to my Mom. Today I realized I was just a creature to yell at for my Dad. For years, these were my suspicions, and today I found out the truth. So now, I can’t see happiness, I can’t see kindness, all I see is a gray void where there was once a masterpiece. So now, I hide my sadness, my pain, my fear behind either a fake smile, or a fake scowl. Just a great life, huh? If my younger self could see me now, he would be mortified at what I’ve become. Cutting, crying every night, clinging to the last bits of happiness that I have…

Now I can’t see a light. All I can see now is the crushing pain and hatred grow and surround me, destroying my remains of love and happiness. I guess I’ll keep the façade up a little longer. There’s no point for me now. I sit in my room and think of how to fix my life, but I know I can’t. So, I guess this is kind of like a suicide note, huh? I don’t care what happens now, I can no longer see why I wanted to live. I constantly think, “Even Hell would be better than this place.” And I know it looks like I’m rambling, but to be honest, I just want to get my thoughts down one last time. I guess this is the great 15 year old life. Well, those of you I’ve met here and helped me, thanks but you wasted your energy on me. To the rest of the people on here, I hope you do better than I did.

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