I dont know. Can you ever imagined how miserable my life is. I have a terrible father. My first sister was a drug addicted. My third sister and my brother didnt finished them school. And im the last one who still studying. And now, i just started thinking. What do i need to do with all this fcking shit. I can go through will all my studies, but just weak on math. I mean, im tired to go to school and pretend that everything is okay. Fake a smile. Its hard to focus on study when we hv our probs and suicide thought. Rn, im saving my money to get ready out from this house. Once enough, i’ll go. To my parents, if oneday they saw this kinda post. Dont worries, i wouldnt being a burden to them anymore.
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Trust me….
And please believe me when I say…
You are not a burden….
But my dad told me, im a burden. And im such a rude daughter. :'(
that’s an asshole thing for a dad to say. You’re not a burden. Please tell yourself that over and over until it becomes second nature. Look in the mirror and say it. “I’m not a burden. I’m worthy of love, kindness and respect.” Keep repeating those lines. Find some good positive friends. Find good mentors – adults or teachers you can trust
^^^^dads shouldn’t say things like that….
I’m going to say the opposite of what most of these people are saying… You’re a burden, and that’s okay. Everyone is. We’re social creatures. We need love, attention, support, compassion, and understanding. We need to feel like we have a place where we belong. And just as desperately as we need it, we let other be a burden to us. Infact, sometimes we want to carry a burden more than anything else. It doesn’t matter how much of a burden you are- because what you give in return is worth it. Your presence makes a difference, and it’s important even if you can’t see or understand it.
If someone told you that you were a burden with the intent to hurt you, then they don’t deserve you as a burden.
But I’m glad to hear you’re trying to change things. If you don’t like the situation, try everything you can to make it better. You owe it to yourself, and everyone who’s important to you. Getting stable and self-sufficient can be very important and help a lot, but it doesn’t need to be rushed. Just keep in school and try your best. You don’t need to fake a smile. Just be yourself, and focus on what you’re doing and what you want to do. If you’re struggling, ask for help. If you’re doing well, show it and smile from your heart.
Your parents will miss you. They may seem callous and uncaring now but deep down they love you.
Can you tough it out til you graduate hs? Do you have nice friends that you can get away to their homes for a break? Like some shelter from the chaos at home. Or even a teacher you can trust to be your mentor. Find a good adult you can talk to – I’m sure your school has teachers, coaches and counsellors who care and will do what they can to help you.
Please ask for help. There are tons of resources in your hs to help you but you’ve got be the one to initiate things and ask and research stuff. Even scholarship for college!!!
Thanks babe. God bless :”
I’m in somewhat similar situation with studies. I found it helpful to ignore people with negative impact on my life. I can’t move away in my case so I just live with it. I help my family with their needs and distance myself from them to minimize how hurtful they can be. Recently I gradually stopped antidepressants and got into exercise in gym. My low energy and physical and immune system weakness improved to the better greatly. Mood and other brain chemicals are way way better. And considering anyone who lived this long with depression have been through a lot of hardships. The iron will we develop is helpful in gym or excersise in general to keep up the routine. It’s way more effective than meds. There’s a certain diet for depressed people to follow but im just getting into that. Sucide is a cruel thing to do to yourself and any loved ones whether the ones you know or yet to meet. I say that even after landing on such a website cause of these thoughts. It’s really hard to focus on studying so as long as you live, everyone please seek improvement and a cure. Life challenges can’t stay forever. You will be in control eventually if you keep fighting for yourself and your health. Many great and successful people deal with the same emotions. As agonizingly slow things may move. Things will improve if you set things into motion and prioritize healing and mending your life. Some problems are out of our own control don’t stress yourself over these. Focus on what you can do at the moment and eventually they’ll be within grasp. Also found stuff like Woebot app useful and there are other techniques to filter your thought process from baseless negativity and make you head clearer.
Sorry for the long winded comment. I just couldn’t pass by as people in the same position i was in recently are hurting.
Didn’t realize how toxic this place is… im outta here lol
Good luck everyone
Such an inspiring advice. Im trying and thank you so much. :'(
Its nice to have a lots of people kinda like you. I really appreciate. God bless.