The very reason why I don’t like sharing and opening up to others is that they will only gonna say that one statement I’ve been hearing a lot like a mantra, “it’s just you and your paranoia. ”
What they don’t know is that it has never been JUST me and JUST my paranoia. What they don’t know is that I have NEVER chosen this. I didn’t want to be alone, I didn’t want to be eaten up by depression and I didn’t want to shut myself out from the world.
I NEVER CHOSE THIS.
I didn’t want any of this.
But they’ll never know because I didn’t want to hear that mantra anymore.