i’m scared that i won’t ever be able to feel real feelings again. i feel like everything’s just a pretend. i feel like a shell… i mean some feelings are present, but they come and go in waves and it’s real torture… I really don’t know what to do, i long for real love, for a true love, and i know that it’ll come unexpected and other shit like that but i just can’t wait anymore… i’m finishing my second year in high school and i still don’t have a boyfriend, and i’m not even ugly, or stupid or like shallow… i mean, i think i’m funny and my friends are happy and always laughing when they are around me, i can make everyone happy except myself… i try but i can’t suceed… i’m really lost in my mind and thoughts… i can’t go on like this, i have to fake like 90% of my happy moments, i don’t even feel sad, just empty and nothing… i really don’t know how to go on like this, i try to cheer me up, but i just can’t…
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Hello, I do understand how you feel. Each day putting on the happy face. Not that this is a cure all, but you have already taken the first positive step. Finding a forum to just express yourself without judgement. Love will come, and love will go…Be good to yourself. It is okay to be a little selfish…
Don’t wait for that true love . Seek for it . Look around you and i hope you’ll find it . That’ what they told me. I hope that it may helps you. I finished my second year too. I’ve never felt true love so I don’t really understand it as a feeling …. i just want a person that actually cares for me Even that i’m used to being lonely the whole time .
thank you 🙂 you’re actually the first person ever to tell me that it’s all right to seek love, not to wait for it because it’s spontaneous, thank you again 🙂