I get what you are going through. At times more frequent now I feel heavy sense of hopelessness. I would like to imagine things will change for the better but things happen and I am thrown against the rocks again. Ending my life seems like the only way out of pain and stress. I have never acted on it but the thoughts are more frequent because the stress builds daily. Not sure what the answer is but I hope for you that you can hold on to different thoughts or reach out to someone who may give you some hope or strength to make you feel better. Wishing you a better day soon. Take care.
Caught in the middle. Don’t want to die. Who does? Don’t want to live under the foreseeable conditions either. I get that.
You, me, and a small army of others live life this way. I have for decades.
For decades I got through each day by creating tons of drama and feeding one obsession after another to distract myself from the pain.
I now have an effective therapist who has for years been driving the pain down. Even so, after decades of poor decision making I wonder if my lifeitself can be saved. But each day I see I have what I need to go another day and so I do. But really, I wonder, how much longer my life can remain livable. We shall see.
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I get what you are going through. At times more frequent now I feel heavy sense of hopelessness. I would like to imagine things will change for the better but things happen and I am thrown against the rocks again. Ending my life seems like the only way out of pain and stress. I have never acted on it but the thoughts are more frequent because the stress builds daily. Not sure what the answer is but I hope for you that you can hold on to different thoughts or reach out to someone who may give you some hope or strength to make you feel better. Wishing you a better day soon. Take care.
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Caught in the middle. Don’t want to die. Who does? Don’t want to live under the foreseeable conditions either. I get that.
You, me, and a small army of others live life this way. I have for decades.
For decades I got through each day by creating tons of drama and feeding one obsession after another to distract myself from the pain.
I now have an effective therapist who has for years been driving the pain down. Even so, after decades of poor decision making I wonder if my lifeitself can be saved. But each day I see I have what I need to go another day and so I do. But really, I wonder, how much longer my life can remain livable. We shall see.