Message to my girlfriend

Have you ever gone first and told her you are suffering and it will help if she notices and pushes you to talk about it? You ask her to make an effort (in a way you are sure she can’t hear you) but does she even know anything is that seriously wrong? It might feel obvious to you, but maybe you are much better at hiding it than you think.

I used to think I would talk eventually if someone pushed me enough…like really pushed. Looking from the other side, why would someone go there if I am being resistant and confident I don’t want to be bothered? Expecting them to read ones mind is just an excuse the disease uses to create more things to feel depressed about because it’s clearly not possible but it will maximize pain and minimize chances for help.

Try and detach yourself for a moment. Spill out just once what’s going on, what you need to help and what defenses to watch out for and push through when the help is offered. If you still get nothing, maybe it’s time to move on to someone new