Im 15 years old and a girl. Im so fucked up with my life. I always think about suicide. But i dont want to being a burden to my family. My sister gonna get married on this August. I dont want to destroy them. I have a terrible dad. Sometimes he drink alcohol. He’s a angry person. He had a tattoo. And guess what? We are a Muslim. Since i was a child, i always thought that i’ve already out from my religion because of my dad. I dont have friends. Im ashamed with my ownself. My mother dont take my suicide seriously. If i didnt do something that she want, she will yelled at me. Yelled all fucking times. I have a scars. And its worst. I have a suicide thought since i was a 13years old. Its been a long times i hold on with my parents. They’re too much.
If i have 2 options, i just wnna suicide or go far from this fckin state of country. I dont know what is the perpose of this life. I loves to being alone. I dont like to being crowd. I dont know. Im just too young to faced all this fucking mess.
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I’m very sorry you have all this to endure and no idea what nation you live in. If you live in any of the “Western Democracies” you will have only a few years left to start your own life as an adult and free from your parents control.
Just because you may have that freedom to do as you please don’t assume it will be all fun and games. Living on your own is difficult at best, almost impossible at times, but at least your mistakes will be your own mistakes and you can own them as opposed to living with your parents mistakes.
Try to hang on a few more years until you’re free to choose your own destiny. Religion probably ought to be shed as it typically doesn’t help young women much less men. Be careful though. Often leaving your religion means completely leaving your family and there are usually dire consequences to leaving your family especially at such a young age. Many religious families treat those who leave their religious beliefs behind and will not support them later in life.
Be very careful how you go about these things and make plans in case of the worst outcome.
Good luck with your life and choices going forward.
my life sucks as well. you are not the only one
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I would try to escape that situation as soon as possible but I realize that is not always easy to do. You won’t feel better till u escape that environment. I’m sorry I had abusive parent too.
hey, i come from a religious family but im irreligious and I know how hard it is to be in the community when chances are you’re gonna be shunned by all those muslims.
if you want to talk, maybe you can hit me up. idk how to improve your situation but i can at least more or less understand why this is a cause of distress for you.
Thank you so much guys. I really appreciate. I’ll try to be strong as long as i can be. Know what, eventho im already 15 years old. My dad still hit me, said to me with a bad words. Then he expect to have a good daughter? However, If my dad slapped me again, i’m out from this house.
Your dad could get in trouble for hitting you. There are people to talk to and it will mean government agencies coming in to deal with your family business. If you live in the states, he could seriously be in trouble if you make that phone call … Talk to someone and make sure you are safe