one more day

one more day has passed and nothing got better.I know I should be more patient, but if I could do that ,my life would have been far better than it is now.Only one escape works now, the thought of falling asleep and never ever waking up.Sure there are people who will get disturbed by this, and who love me ,but I got to be selfish now ,just like they were when I tried to get help.I am sure they will be dissappointed in me and hate me for this, so it might as well be their last time.