I can’t take what’s happened to my brain life was perfect before I got this psychotic injection. I don’t know how I’ve made it through each day in the last 4 months. No-one should go through this except child killers, there is a hidden mass murder of mental patients going on. I’m so hurt thinking what life should be like and can’t stop trying to go back in time in my mind to fix things, im in a mental straightjacket its so brutal, once sectioned by mental health it’s almost impossible to escape without being injected as Ive learnt.
I’ve lived a nonstop extreme nightmare that feels very deliberately created, it hurts to think about simple things, just words , imagining things, trying to day dream stings my brain. I lay in bed hour after hour waiting for my head to settle, it takes 5 hours to get up, and shortly after I’m back in bed, this is not living it can’t be argued that I shouldn’t die. I’m now looking into over the counter cocktails that might be deadly, I can’t wait to try get prescription drugs of the dark web.
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Hey Agonizing.
I thought I had found a solution to a few of my problems, but I don’t think it’s going to be a solution and it just made me realize my situation is even worse than I thought.
I stopped thinking about suicide for about 2 days, which was kind of nice, but I’m back here again, not knowing what to think. All I know is that I’m scared to consider suicide.
I don’t want to kill myself but I feel that I have to.
I had a good life before this.
I can’t go to sleep and I’m tired, I keep shaking in my sleep I can’t get the bad thoughts out of my head.
You want to talk on forumjar suicide methods,
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If you are interest reply to my post on forumjar suicide methods all the way at the bottom under DW.
I’ll check it out
Let me know if you can’t find it?
Whats going on? What were you injected with? And why?
Hey mountain goat I seen you post a few times, how are you feeling today?
Injected with drugs for schizos totally misdiagnosed see my profile posts
I don’t want to die, but I think I’m going to have to suicide, because the pain of living a life that I’m foreseeing would be more painful than being dead.
It’s either be dead or be a mental illness homeless for the rest of my life. I think death is more dignifying than that.
Tell me who do you feel worse for, a dead person or a crazy old bum?
@definitelyworried you’re going to make me cry. I feel the same way, I don’t see nothing but homelessness coming and that’s more difficult for a female.
I think it’s equally difficult, for both genders.
I’m so scared of dying, though, I don’t know what to do I’m desperate for releif. I can’t go on living this way. If I’m going to kill myself, I don’t see why wait and keep living this way.
I guess I’m trying to find every opportunity to see if I can change my situation for the better, but this has been going on for a few months now, and things seem to be only getting worse.
I understand, I just believe that women are susceptible to rapes and have menstruals.
I don’t know if I have asked you this, but do you believe in God?
Part of me can’t beleive in God, but the other part does. I beleive in hell and I beleive that God might be punishing me, but I don’t beleive God wants humans to have an easy life. If I new for sure that there is no conciousnes after death, my suicide would be much easier.
Now if I kill myself I will do so in fear of hell.
Just another way humans and my voulnability are torturing me all the way to the grave.
I tried to be a good person, but I was mistaken in my ways. I was too confident that everything would be ok.
I will not allow myself to live a dreaded life, I will sadly and reluctantly end my life.
As you can see I’m very troubled, I think I’m one of the most troubled minds I’ve seen or heard of.
I do believe in God, as some form had to create these aspects of the world, like tree’s, flowers, people, etc. The heaven and hell part since I’ve thought about suicide, I don’t know if I believe in it anymore. Our challenges seem burdensome and that’s the part that I don’t appreciate. @definitelyworried where are you located?
I’ll tell you where I’m located, if you tell me where are you located first?
Sorry I don’t feel to comfortable sharing my location.
Doesn’t beleiving in God make suicide more difficult?
Could you commit suicide and beleive in God at the same time?
Part of me doesn’t beleive in God.
That part of me is what tells me suicide is so much better.
I don’t want to experience any more pain.
Even if everything goes good I think eventually I’ll end up killing myself anyways, cause I don’t want to die a slow death.
The sad thing is I don’t know if I beleive in God.
I really don’t know.
I don’t know why I haven’t killed myself yet, the pain I been going through each day for the past 3 months is unreal. I’m scared of what tommorow will bring.
I don’t want any more bad news.
I am in the United States
Yeah I’m the usa too, Ree.
I’m ready to die. Don’t want to live like this.
I’m not ready to die, but I can’t live like this.
I’m not ready to die but I have to die, otherwise I’m going to go through unecessary pain.
I wish I still wanted to live. I used to have the desire to fight, but I don’t care anymore. I’m thinking today. I have lots of time.
I’m going to be checking to see if you respond through out the day today.
I always wish you the best, whatever route you take.
I still wish to live but not like this.
I will need to find the courage to hang myself.
I can’t afford financially any other method , maybe there is another method I could use but it will take some planning.
Did you hear about Kate Spade, she recently committed suicide and left a 12 year old daughter, behind.
She hanged herself, she has more courage than I do.
Damn it, if she can do it so can i.
I need to get ready to just do it.
I can’t do it, I have to do it.
Do these thoughts ever go through your mind?
No. I don’t compare myself to others.
I can so relate, I sooooo wanna go back in time to right the wrong. But it’s beyond me and it hurts so badly!!! I too can’t get out of the bed every morning, and each time I fall asleep the nightmares come haunt me. This is living hell!!!