This is night two and I’m not able to fall asleep. I was awake all last night, had a 3 hour nap but woke up every 30 minutes this afternoon and now it’s 3:40a.m. and I’m not tired but I logically know I need sleep. I haven’t been eating much lately either so I don’t know if they’re connected at all.
I feel emotionally empty but I have been able to easily act happy, natural and I surprisingly have engery. I haven’t had any urges to self harm recently but I do have a suicide plan. I’m really confused and kind of worried because my heart rate has increased and my chest hurts constantly. I can’t focus very well and keeping up a normal, face to face conversation is really hard, but not tiring as it normally would be.
Usually when I’m tired and hungry, I become very anxious, get panic attacks and feel like I live in constant fear and like I’m going insane but not this time. This time I feel physically different. I get dizzy spells while sitting, my heart rate is up, I have headaches, breathing feels weird, my breaths are shallow and I feel shakey but I’m not actually. I’m also really thirsty for some reason and no matter how much water I drink, I still want more.
I honestly don’t know what’s happening but if I’m dying, I think I’d be okay with that. I’m 14 and have no family history of any physical conditions but my bio mother has lots of mental health concerns and issues. I’ve told some of my friends about the sleep situation and they’re already acting genuinely concerned. I can still function properly but I still don’t know what’s happening. Any thoughts or suggestions?
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you are not dying. not be able to sleep is not symptom of impending death.
try ativan it works for me. have your Dr prescribe you a small dose and gradually raise it up to the right dose.
It’s better than most sleeping pills cause you won’t wake up all groggy in the morning
part of it might be vitamin deficiency from you not eating as much, or enough of the right things. the water might play into that too.. sometimes when we’re actually thirsty we eat instead of drink, could be the opposite here.
as to the sleep, that could be a side effect of the meds, try bringing it up with your physician.
It’s ok . i feel the same . For the sleeping problem , I have it to . just lay down , try to control your breathing , don’t push the thoughts away , It will only make it worse and u will have headaches .
Close ur eyes very hard , and u ll sleep . Idk it works for me . Now I’m just good at sleeping .
Insomnia definitely sucks. For me, running a couple hours before going to bed helps, because after the adrenaline dump. Also what OverDreamer said — don’t tense up and try to control your thoughts. The more you try hard, the less you’ll be able to sleep. Just let your mind wander, and let go.
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