Suicide, a notion taboo in the eyes of society.
An out cast. “One must live” as they all say. “Must live”. As if one is to be blamed for wanting it to all fade away.
why must suicide be looked down upon?
One is outcasted for being depressed.
Shunned for wanting an out.
Darkness must not win they say.
And yet I many dark thoughts.
supressing these things so I fit in.
pushing them away with a fake smile.
Enough
If being who I am is enough to Risk my relationships .
i v had it
I am not happy all the time, I get anxious. So what? You gonna run away because I am not happy all the time? This is F*ed
I have had it.
But still I have great friends. So I am staying. If pain ever comes up, I will endure it.
But I will not neglect the fact I have thought about suicide. And the world does not have to be a jolly happy place 24/7.
i am not a monster. Oh man! People gonna stay way when I am not happy and energetic. Forget it man. If they don’t want that side of me. So be it. Fk
When I get pissed I get pissed. If I want to cry i fking cry. I don’t care anymore. This is bulsht.
Sorry if this made anyone uncomfortable
Thank you for making this site, thank y’all for coming out here and reconciling with the darkness. Saying things that society secretly despise. Of course I am going to keep my happy side out in public, but it’s really tiring. But hey, ima accept that pain. For me and the people I care about. Wish y’all the best.
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I appreciate your perspectives and thoughts on our taboo subject. For now I too am trying endure and persevere. It is the path of least resistance in the West certainly.
Sometimes I read about current Chinese and Japanese perspectives on suicide. They are at least different than our Western views of it.
Also, in the Middle East between about 1800 BCE to 800 BCE three Israeli kings offed themselves. Other less notable personages did it, tried it, or wanted it too.
But, we live in the here and now and if our society expects us to endure all our pain and is content to support us until we can express a willingness to live then I guess that is ok for now too.
Neanderthal theory. Pretty much sums it all up.