i don’t think that normal people can understand what depression feels like and they keep asking you to do the things that makes you happier
and what they dont know is that nth makes you happy or even comfortable
you are literally tired of waking up,sleeping , eating, not eating …… nth makes you comfortable
when you lie in your bed it feels like if the gravity is 100 times stronger
and you feel so empty
you feel like if your brain is shrinking and your soul now is smaller and that your body and the world is so much bigger than what you can handle
my therapist keep asking me to till someone about my depression just to be there for me
but no one will understand
no one understands the idea of you wanting to kill yourself
they think you are just so weak and so spoilt
those were a couple of ideas that i wanted to share
thanks for whoever read it
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Yeah, I’m kind of tired of “normal” people who will never understand…
Must be nice to be so perfect and want to live, never feeling overwhelmed by some crap to the point of wanting to die…
“I don’t get it, what is making you feel this way?”
I understand what you are saying
Your brain is shrinking and your soul is smaller….
I have tried snorting zyprexa after drinking a beer. I then lie in bed and feel like my body is not an open wound to be attacked… I felt ok in my body for once. Lying in bed I did not feel like a shell being fed off of… I felt like my body was stiff, strong and warm and if I tilted my head to the right and closed my eyes nothing would bury me alive. Hard to explain. Like my aura was finally not broken open and that nothing could pass through. No pain. Just stiff and secure. No pain. Was the strangest sensation…. felt around three times. Stopped taking them though.