a losers part

Yes I didn’t ask permission but explained politely that it was my deepest wish to commit suicide and I’m sorry but I’m going to kill myself… I was just letting them know, I am not a phony lil ***** crying for help. I was shoved in psych ward for 60 odd days and the people there shoved me in a corner and slammed needles into my arms, buttocks, kneecap etc… once they put me off for knocking a glass of milk off the counter. The third time I was raped. It was either a man who worked there or one of the patients who raped me while I was sedated (large dose of ambien) and asleep. It’s a funny story actually, but I was out when he raped me my eyes were closed and I’d never had sexual intercourse with a male but I remember I was groggy that night so I took off my pants to sleep in my boxers (you know the ones with the lil holes in the front) I was rather in a very bad state there I sensed everything about the place was off and they trapped me for 28 days… I was not in my right mind trying to adjust to how wacky the place was. anyway I am sleeping and too groggy to open my eyes but I feel this small cold bent wiener go inside of my vagina and in my head it says “John” he was letting me know that was his name and that he was the one raping me. Or it was someone thinking of another males name while raping me to throw me off. I did not open my eyes. His dick was in me once and then he walked off before I opened my eyes. I woke up later that evening and my eyes went wide while in “group” remembering what had occurred and knowing it really happened. I took all of my clothes I had worn there to the donation center and I couldn’t sleep for 2 weeks. I thought he was going to come to my house and find me.