I’m in my 30s, and need to coordinate the strength to end it there. I grew up abused, multiple ways, attempted my end through pills as a teen but failed. Married an abusive man young too, have had children who I love dearly. Fell for a man who promised to rescue me, help save my kids and I, and when I left with him, he ended up abusing me as well, I still love him, sad though it is. I had to return to my husband and have no way out, and am unable to work. I love them dearly but cannot take this neverending abuse, knowing I can’t save them either, I don’t want to watch this play out. I’ve tried to get help but since he hasn’t been physical with them, he’d still have access and I would lose them since I cannot support myself alone, let alone them too. I can’t bare to watch myself lose them, bc I couldn’t save any of us. I am powerless as I’ve always been and if I can do nothing else, at least let me end my own suffering.
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I wish I could give you answers and solid help but I don’t have either.
But you owe it to them to keep trying til everything is exhausted. You dead means they won’t have anyone looking out for them, and they need that as they need you.
I’m sorry you’ve had to deal with crap guys.