Don’t want to be here anymore

I’m in and out of jobs my family and friends have tried to help but because I’ve made no change they’ve created a disstance and treat me with more anger,but still say they love me. I can’t do it, everyone in the world does it ,, why can’t I? I’ve dropped out of school 30000$ + in debt at 21, with really bad credit and absolutely no money… I try and believe things will get better, but even the bad little things that happen daily trigger me. I don’t want to do this anymore, why did I think life was going to be great and get better when each day it’s just making a harder obstacle for myself… weveryone tellls me I need to change, but I think deep down I don’t because I’m done I don’t enjoy this place anymore, I get selfish and jealous daily, I don’t belong here, nor do I want to be here anymore… please help me..