Is there any way where I can knock myself out for a few days without hurting my body? Or is that just not possible? Stay unconscious in a hospital for a few days?
Being awake and conscious of my own thoughts is just too exhausting. My parents have tried to take me out on trips and spent a lot of money on me to try to cheer me up, and as much as I appreciate their efforts, it’s not working for me. I can’t cheer myself up either. No matter how much I try to distract myself, it all leads to the same train of thought. I’m seeing a therapist and various counselors have been keeping in touch with me since my last suicide attempt. I haven’t lost all hope yet. I’m still waiting for something to happen before I go, so I’m not currently suicidal at least. I’ll give it a few more weeks.
But right now, I don’t want to be apart of anyone’s lives, and I don’t want to drown in my own thoughts anymore. I want release, even for just a few days.
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