I want to leave

A few weeks ago my girl left me. Almost a 2 year relationship. I truly miss her. She kept me from killing myself and doing anything harm. Not I will I could have never stepped foot in this planet. I sometimes just want to leavr without a trace. Blame her for what she did to me. I gave her everything and all I got in return she gave me nothing. For me, there there was no yesterday, tomorrow is to far. I just want to leave. Im so done with this world. I want to give everything up. I want to scream all this pain. Im done with all this!