I’ve tried. My whole life I have tried my hardest to be the good girl everyone wants me to be. To be happy and to be healthy. Well, I suck at both. God, I’m not even content with being a girl. I have depression and anxiety. I’m self-conscious. I cut myself. I have nerve damage and carpal tunnel in both wrists, I have arthritis in both of my knees, I have Rnolds.
Sigh…
I’m a tornado. I suck people in and spit them out in worse condition than before they entered. I make people want to kill themselves. They’ve said it to my face. It’s all I’ve ever done. All I do is make people unhappy because of how much of a freak I am…
I’m sorry for posting this and annoying everyone but I just needed to get this out to prevent myself from bringing any harm to my body.
~AJ
3 comments
If letting it all out here is what helps, go right ahead <3
I feel validated when I read your post. And I can feel compassion when I read about your pain because I can relate, and then I feel some compassion for myself, and I heal just a little bit.
That’s really sad people feel that way about you. 🙁
I mean, it’s not that you’re purposely trying to make people feel uncomfortable, are you? 🙁