Im trying to hold on in hopes that things will get better. I have nobody, im turly alone in this world. Every day i force myslef to go to work at a job i dont like with peole im sure do not like me either. I recently started trying to exercise in my apartment following you tube videos along. Hopefully i can get a gym membership one of these days, i figure with no to call or call me i can try to improve my health. Its all bull sh*t Though , i feel so empty inside no purpose no desire like im just here untill i die. Idk i just keep trying to hold on, thanks for taking the time to read this im on my luch break an i was going a little crazy i figured i’d try an vent.
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Hey, hold on. I feel you. I believe you are very strong for passing through all of this.
It’s very good that you are trying to improve your condition. It’s terrible to live alone. Lots of people commit suicide when they suffer from this condition. But think about it a little bit.
What if it is much better to endure this life no matter how hard or dreadful it is than to commit suicide and go where you know nothing. You have no promise that this is the good option. You have only the word death and every being on this planet is usually afraid of death, with good reason most of the time, I would say.
I hope you will find meaning in your life. Spirituality is a good start. There are people who survived in death camps only because they had faith.Perhaps you can find a meaningful belief system.
Or have you tried yoga?
It’s also extremely important to get to know people. Start posting on forums at least. If you could afford going to university, go, only to meet people and improve your career, have other job opportunities.
Or you can even go to a church even if you are not religious. You can meet lots of people there.
I’ve been to the church my entire life and every Christian there thinks I am religious. I am not. But I go only to escape loneliness, listen to their prayers and meditate.
You need to surround yourself with good people.
Keep holding on.
Even though it may feel like holding on to a blade, keep holding on.
There’s only so much flesh the blade can cut through
You are made of so much more than you think of.
You are worth much more than you realize.
Huh, when it comes to work problems and sometimes typing out stuff in the middle of a break, I go through the same stuff. o.o
I should probably start exercising more too…