life is a nightmare

  July 14th, 2018 by michaelatky

I’m 30 and just wish I had never been born! People who say oh it gets better are just lying or on some powerful drugs. Most of my problems are self inflicted but some aren’t. I’ve tried sucide 3 times and each one failed I’m definitely going to complete it next time fuck life.

 

I’m 30 never held a job besides a temporary job from a government program. I did county work. That was like 9-10 years ago. I haven’t  got a license and I’m obese a virgin can’t even talk to the opposite sex. I hope I die soon. I was molested by a friend of the family when I was like 9 or 10 I developed social anxiety my parents never pushed me to do anything! Now I’m 30 fat ass loser who just wishes he had the balls to kill himself. Now I have MS and memory problems and I’ve signed up for ssi but they denied me. I’m killing myself that’s for damned sure if God exists then I have 3 questions for his sorry ass. 1: why did he allow me to get molested? 2 why do I have such bad social anxiety? And why did I develop MS? This life is a fucking nightmare! Fuck life! I don’t give a fuck anymore I just want to die! The system doesn’t give a fuck. I was called stupid by one my school teachers. It destroyed me because I really was trying my best. But she basically called me stupid in front of the entire class. So I hate life nothing about this fucking life is good! Fuck I just want to crawl in a hole somewhere and go to sleep and never wake up.  I just can’t handle life I wasn’t meant or built for this. I’m a failure fuck everyone and everything! I’m done.

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