Pain and Misery

  July 13th, 2018 by V95

I can’t stop thinking about you. I think that I reflect everything that has happend to me, to you. I don’t want to exist on this planet anymore. I’ve hurt everyone around me because of my own pain and I just want it to stop. I want to stop feeling so miserable and it feels like the only way to so is to stop breathing. To stop living and stop feeling. My soul’s damaged beyond repair. Something I mostly did to myself, because I empathize too much with other peoples pain. And in this matrix that we live in doesn’t seem to make it any easier on me. I wish people just knew that the matrix is real.

You know everyone has this question. Why am I alive? The answer is because even if you don’t see it. You are alive to help people around you.

They say the saddest people got the nicest smile. And that smile of yours may have changed the course of destiny of an individual you know or don’t. That smile of yours can be so contagious that I will smile too and for that will live for another day.

But the sad thing is. No one knows what’s behind that smile. And what some of you may think it’s really sad, I think it’s beautiful. Because that sadness, misery what lies behind those beautiful eyes of yours. That right there, is your broken story, your damaged soul, your crushed heart and inner demons. That which is yours and no one in this world can take it from you. Sadly not even you..

God I wish I knew all of you. I feel like I’m the only one who can find comfort in your eyes,just like you find comfort in mine. Like you’re the only one who understands my pain and vice versa. This was supposed to be a suicide note but somehow changed into some weird ass creepy romantic one hahahaha. For those who took the time to read this. I thank you just for the fact that I know that you are the one who understands my eyes.


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