Suicidal again.

For quite some time I’ve been really quite happy. I haven’t been thinking about negative things and I’ve been having fun too. But then I started feeling more left out at school again and starting to feel lonely or like I’m missing a person in my life. It’s 11:30pm and I’m very tired. I have to wake up in 7 hours then go to school. Im dreading this so much because of things that have been happening and how my friendships are AGAIN becoming more distant. One thing about me, is that I physically can’t deal with being lonely and being excluded – and that is exactly what is beginning to happen to me again. It’s been a struggle to let alone deal with whats happening, but also hard to put on a face to everyone. I’ve been doing so well in school too and I’m really heading on the right track but when I’m sad and lonely like this, I can’t focus and I don’t have any motivation. It just really sucks because sometimes I’m happy and then other times I’m suicidal again…