What’s the Point

what the hell is the point anymore everyone hates me I hate me to I get jealous of course my boyfriend hangs with his ex cuz they are good friends and yet it makes me the bad fucken person for getting mad jealous about it well im sorry I have trust issues I’ve been in 18 relationships total since I was 12 no I aint no slut like you all think my life sucked back then and still does ever since 3 months old I’ve been in foster homes with strangers who I don’t even know the I was placed at 2 than 5 then 7 again at 12 that was the last time I was placed with a stranger and I was taken out of foster care they thought my parents changed and all I’ve had 4 counselor tell me I’m going to be okay and life gets better really does it I don’t fucken think so it fucken sucks knowing I’m a horrible person 12-22-16 changed my life I’ve been with him ever since he’s been my rock but yet he hates my family and hates me being here with them I don’t know what to do anymore as a young child I always cut my self and tried to over dose but it didn’t I took 15 pills but yet im still here in the what ever place you call it I call it nothing cuz what’s the point of even being here if everything you do is wrong I’m done I should just end my life tonight