Fears. What if I survive? How will people feel? What if dying hurts? The problem is there’s always a chance of surviving. If you don’t do it just right it can be painful or you can survive. And even if you do it right what if someone saves you? Now they live with that memory too. There’s so many things that can go wrong for the worse. It’s safer not to try until you’re 100% sure but you never can be.
Pain. I don’t like pain. I just want to die peacefully without pain. I was thinking about overdosing myself with sleeping pills, but if ever I survive, I know i’ll have irrepairable damages, so…. nope.
My God-Father. It’s because of him that I have stayed alive for another year. He understands the numbness and the outbursts of emotions. I don’t want to hurt him especially because he just lost his mother to cancer.
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Fears. What if I survive? How will people feel? What if dying hurts? The problem is there’s always a chance of surviving. If you don’t do it just right it can be painful or you can survive. And even if you do it right what if someone saves you? Now they live with that memory too. There’s so many things that can go wrong for the worse. It’s safer not to try until you’re 100% sure but you never can be.
Pain. I don’t like pain. I just want to die peacefully without pain. I was thinking about overdosing myself with sleeping pills, but if ever I survive, I know i’ll have irrepairable damages, so…. nope.
My addiction to life.
Family. Not in a good way though, I just couldn’t bring myself to hurt them like that, no matter how bad it has been.
Like above post family, however you reach a point where you go ahead with it irrespective of the hurt it will cause
my husband.
But he’s starting to understand my suffering and how I feel about choosing my time to go.
Family, I wish I didn’t have them around tho so that I can off myself
My God-Father. It’s because of him that I have stayed alive for another year. He understands the numbness and the outbursts of emotions. I don’t want to hurt him especially because he just lost his mother to cancer.