- So I don’t really know what to say or how say it but do you ever lay in bed and just think about your life and how messed up it is? Cause I do that a lot and I start to cry… Since last year my life has changed a lot my step dad that I knew since I was 3, left my mom and my mom started a depression, I was acting like everything was okay while deep inside I was just brocken. My mom made me see someone to talk to and it helped me but I think that it also broke me a little more cause I realized how NOT okay I was not only because of my step dad but with everything. Since I’m a child my dad and my mom that I love very much have a problem with alcohol and I’ve never really realized how much it affected me until I had to talk about it. I’m still nowaday acting like I’m okay and smiling to everyone but deep inside I feel so lonely and so sad. I know I’m not a good writer but I just wanted to express what I feel.
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at least you can still cry. it’s almost a catch-22 how finding out how messed up you are actually makes you even more messed up. i can attest to that most definitely. cancer of the mind. and i thought it was just lack of sleep. ha. how silly.
getting your thoughts out is a good way to feel better. if you dont want to post here you can keep a journal or call a helpline. theres always things you can do to get your thoughts out there i even have a facebook account just for listening to people that need to be listened to. https://www.facebook.com/hope.taylor.75248795
you should do everything you can to be happy again. im happy. although i have the occasional….down fall. but thats going to happen now and again. as long as can feel happy sometimes thats an achievement 🙂
omg
like you wrote all the things that i didnt even knew how to say it to myself
and this made me happy
so thanks
Glad it makes you happy 🙂
Yeah, like when your body is inside out.