If I had a gun right now, I would blow my brains out.
Hopefully I’ll be able to purchase one soon.
I can’t take this boredom, loneliness and depression any more.
I’m useless, worthless and nobody gives a crap about me.
I kept waiting for life to kill me somehow.. Now I know that I’m going to have to do it myself.
I won’t miss much. I wish I had died years ago, or better yet.. Never been born.
This life is a pathetic, cruel, miserable joke.
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Hello,
Something in the tone of your posts resonates with me–like maybe we’d be friends if we had ever met. It sounds goofy as heck, but I don’t like it when my friends feel pain so I thought I’d reach out to say hi and let you know that someone out here hears you.
Life does suck right now. Seems 40 to 50-somethings were born at the wrong time, right? We’ve hit every rough patch life could throw at us, including the current ageism epidemic. Life sucks from every direction. I sure as hell hope it passes (although someone once told me that hope is not a strategy).
You’re not useless or worthless, you’re just surrounded by short-sighted people who can’t see value when it stands right in front of them. That’s a major problem infecting every aspect of modern life right now.
Anyway, I don’t really know how to help…but please don’t buy a gun. You have value and you deserve to be here.
Wish I could help in some small way.
Thanks for your reply.. You are correct on just about everything, including that we could have been friends if we met.
I appreciate your words, but my time on this planet is ending. I’m not living.. I’m just existing. (And unfortunately, I really am very worthless and useless)
It’s time to pull the plug.
May I ask why you think you’re worthless and useless?
Because I fail at pretty much everything I do. I can’t make friends, I can’t maintain successful romantic relationships, or ones with my family, have been fired from jobs, I’ve never been promoted, I make mistakes all the time.. My brain just doesn’t work normally and it has negatively impacted every part of my life, to the point I’m useless and worthless. I’ve always been a loser, but it gets worse almost every year. I just want to die.
How whiny you are… I agree though, Life is life, same as it will always be. Not worth living. I hope to shoot myself too. Bienvenidos, good luck to you.
P.S. I was supposed to have shot myself 6 years back, but it doesn’t matter that time has passed. Just because things have happened around you doesn’t mean you can’t pretend none of it has happened and end your life. With suicide, there is no time afterwards…. just the fettering away waiting for the perfect time to shoot your brains out. 😉
I can’t wait. I wonder when my dream will come true. It’s taking a long time. I would prefer to shoot myself to death, but may have to OD or jump off a cliff. Not sure how else I was trying to end my life. Maybe find a suicide partner… not sure, anyways.. everything worth it is hard to achieve, I will for sure be grateful on the day I finally get to achieve my goal….
Words of a recent OD…. “The waiting is the hardest part.”