My parents seem determined to do something special for my birthday. I know it’s more for than because my sister wants to make me a cake for herself, and my parents want to go camping and hiking because they enjoy doing those kinds of things. I, on the other hand, don’t want some stupid cake or to go out in the wild or anything. I just wish that they’d listen to what I want to do. I wish people would just forget about my birthday. They don’t seem to understand what being suicidal means. If I want to die, why on earth would I want to celebrate the day I was born. They claim it’s because they care about me and whatnot. But I know it’s because they want to feel less guilty and they want to things for themselves. So why can’t I just disappear and forget all about this stupid day.
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I want to wish you a “Happy Birthday” though it seems you don’t feel like celebrating, but I hope that changes for you. Is it possible that your family could care and be trying to cheer you up? I know family can be a real pain (both by not listening or by being selfish, doing things for themselves while saying it’s for your benefit) but could it be possible that they are doing the best they can, even as dysfunctional as they may be? Maybe you could try and explain what you’d rather do for your birthday, one more time, and let them know you’re not interested with what they have planned? Or perhaps spend the day with a friend? Sometimes, family doesn’t get it. Literally, does not or can not understand. But they may still love you and want to celebrate you. I hope you enjoy your birthday, find some pleasure even with a slice of cake. Best wishes…
Don’t go. Lmao. I feel bad for your family almost, something’s wrong with them? Why would anyone in their right mind bake you a cake and try to force you to go hiking to celebrate insert years and 9 months since they concieved you.