Well I guess I’m finally here. I used to read a lot on this website. I would look for people who feel the same way I did. And now I’m compelled to post here myself because I’ve tried other sources of help. But I really don’t think they understand me. Plus, I did find a lot of shitty people. I feel that people on this website are nice and may actually make me feel better.
I guess I’m just another suicidal person. And like many of you, I’m suicidal because I have had my dreams shattered, my heart broken and now I have no idea where my life is going and I have no idea what to do. Absolutely no idea. I never really expected I would end up here. I never really expected that one day I would want to kill myself. I never really thought that life would become so lonely. But it did. It just feels like I was placed into the middle of a war with no weapons and I didnt even realize it happened.
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Yeah I know how you feel. I’ve been visiting this site for about a year and i just made an account this morning.
I made mine yesterday. Hello to you too π
It’s nice to already have some people to talk to. Most places make me feel excluded because i try to hard to fit in.
Exactly same here
“It just feels like I was placed into the middle of a war with no weapons and I didnt even realize it happened.”
that is truly the best description. I’m not sure how long you’ve been battling, but welcome. This is a good place to find others in the same war.. If you can stay safe long enough to get to know the SP community you will learn, we may not have much for weapons but we share what we have and defend our people.
*hugs*
Thank you so much
Well first let me start by welcoming you lol. I know it’s not a place that you ever wished you’d be in, but nonetheless you are correct in noticing that most of the users on here are very kind and compassionate to one another. Myself, I also lurked around for a year or so and then finally started posting myself. I’ve been on and off for many years now. But, as to your analogy of the situation, which you referred to as: “It just feels like I was placed into the middle of a war with no weapons and I didn’t even realize it happened.” I think I can relate to a certain extent, but my own perception of it is that it just took me awhile to realize that life is a warzone, and it just took me a long time to figure it out. I think most people on here have been abused in one way or another – or many. Emotional trauma can absolutely be overwhelming and seem impossible to cope with. Have you tried any meds? The only ones that I’ve found that have been of any real benefit are benzodiazepines. I don’t know your situation, obviously, but I always recommend that people give those a try because they helped me so much.
Thanks a lot. However, I don’t really know how I can find these medicines. Moreover, I don’t have any prescription. I don’t really know how I can acquire them. Besides I feel that as long as I can hold on without meds, they wont be necessary.
You’d have to talk to a doctor to get something like that but there are natural over the counter ones you can get. I’ve done some research on SAMe but i cant take any because it would mess with other things i take so currently I’m not taking anything for depression.
Same here, shattered dreams, broken heart. I dn how to pick myself up bc on top of of that I have to deal with social anxiety, low self-esteem bla bla. But anyway welcome, I hope you wonβt stay here for long tho, hope you find a way to tackle your depression and suicidal thoughts!! π
Thanks. I hope you find your way too π
Hiding is an option, but how long will it prove effective?
I don’t really know