Hey all,
I’ve been a member for years and delete my posts. Anyway, I have absolutely tried everything to be better, even Christ (whom I love and do believe in).
Something is wrong with me. I have tried for many years and many ways to fix it. I absolutely have done everything.
I am 38 now. I am done. I want to die.
I have researched many ways but I think my best option is jumping off a massive bridge near my hometown that you absolutely couldn’t survive. I can muster the guts if I’m plastered drunk.
What do you all think? And I have nothing planned but I cannot describe the absolute misery I love in and I’ve done everything. I’d prefer helium or hanging but I feel I’d need someone helping me so the bridge (while scary) is the best option.
Thanks. I’m about 95% sure this is the only solution. And I’ve given it 18 years.
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You deserve better. What if things will get better for you în the near future?
How high is the bridge ? From what I’ve read we humans can be surprisingly tough sometimes, if you have to do it you have to be sure it’s going to work.
I’m also looking into a jump from a height. In my case it’s gonna have to be cliffs, the fall in question being 500 feet, so that should do the trick. I can relate so much to your post, I’m 38 as well, living in hell, and it’s the end of the line for me. As the above post said how high is the bridge you speak of?
chasms, i would choose you,
precarious rocks, somehow beseech?
one-more time, I could do this, anytime
but holy, it’s the modern day crucify.
is the entire mission, up to I.
Plundered, like to die?
of the cosmic, spasm
was and is, the damned question
the connections, better to believe it
I’m pulling this boulder, is to know..
oh.. and being passive, i must continue
because, man, would not be able to, save this man.
what are, these other lessons, from your realm
of population, with perhaps a plank and a rope, or something.
these sacred sights and this ultimate faith, thing
some type of bling, that from here, I could no further imagine.
I dispel death and insanity, for eternity, Amen.
The most powerful, was being witnessed, another time, the mega-fly.. in the story of.
It was a miracle battle, from these depths, the Alakazam, break through, when the concept is inhumane, for it further makes no human sense. Wake up, to the real sense of mankind. Where are you, now. In Christ. You’ve been called twice. It’s about to get, mythical. This butter of slice.. Your presence, is it, or was it? As well, within this very nation. I’ll make my best, from this side of the map. But now, that YOU, know, but a speculation, of.. what could be emphasized as, of it all. This is it, the indigo, plateau. For yourself, to be, the prince, or the princess.
too much, or enough
excalibur!