After I asked the financial aid dept at my school a question because I planned on graduating in the fall, they removed more than half of my assistance for the fall without asking me, officially fucking me over. In order to pay for school, I’d have to take a shit-ton of loans when I’m already deeeeeep in debt. Or… you know, they coulda told me before doing that so I could consider not applying for graduation in the fall before they fuck me over.
It feels life everything in my life wants me dead. The landlord, my mom, my school… Work is literally the only good thing in my life… Sure, it’s not perfect: I feel useless because there are still so many things I don’t know, and I know it’s going to push me to the limit because I can only work 20 hours instead of 30. But still, for a little while, it makes me feel like a normal human being.
But right now I have to forget everything, and I have to focus on this project and get it done immediately.
I feel like I’m being pushed to the edge.