Living dead

My nightmare is now reaching its 6th month, everyone said i would get better, unfortunately for me ive proved them wrong, my brain has reached the bottom of the psychiatric barrel because of the systems disgusting forced medication practices. The government did the most vicious barbaric crime against me, they violated my human rights beyond belief and forced a poisonous cocktail of drugs into my veins, i wouldnt do this to my worst enemy. Im left with no option but suicide, ive cried more times and more intensely than i bargained for over the span of my life. Only those hit with antipsychotics can understand how brutal this experience is, i cant imagine anything being harder and isolating, ill get no justice for them removing parts of my brain that i need to function, ive been handed worse than a life sentence in prison because this is nonstop torture and with extreme boredom thrown in as an extra, i had a much easier and dignified time in jail and accomplished more. I cant believe this is where i find myself after all my effort and sacrifice to become the best person i could be. Cant believe its over so fucking soon and in such a horrible way.