Idk what’s the best way to express my feelings towards everyone that i love or hate which is so annoying and obnoxious.
Hiding behind a mask of happiness while I’m inside hurting and suffocating.
I just realized that life doesn’t go as u wish.
Not every moment in your life has to be sunshine and rainbows
Why I’m blaming everyone for my own mistakes like i did those i can’t lie about it.
Is it bullying, cyberbullying, selfshaming, sexual assault, maybe just hate.
I killed myself by myself.
Maybe i was far away from GOD.
Why would god answer my prayers if i didn’t obey him.
I believe I’m selfish.
I can’t write on this site anymore, cuz some of u went through more horrible and hard moments than I am.
I don’t wanna take that away from all of ya.
I can’t sit here and say I’ve never attempted suicide, but i did multiple times.
As far as my mask of happiness goes, I’m gonna wear it until i get sick of it and maybe someday someone will know my true self which is (BROKEN).
Still no one knows about my true self except the people on this site.
I read some of your posts here, sometimes i cry and feel sorry for all of u, and sometimes i feel sorry for myself.
SUICIDE is much more than a word it’s the end for some people.
Yesterday i watched a movie called – cyberbully.
There’s two movies with the same title, the one i watched is a girl with a short hair and a British accent get hacked by a hacker and get exposed very badly to a point that she wanted to kill herself.
I recommend u watch it cuz i really discoverd some horrible shit about my personality in the past.
Maybe I’m not the victim, maybe I’m the predator.
Cuz i remember now that i was a bully and bad person.
I started rumors about some people and made their life miserable.
And when it happened to me i couldn’t bare the pain.
Yes I’m a Hippocrate.
So that’s i can’t post anything on here ever again.
Now i just wanna say…… STOP THE HATE.