Why dont you talk?!….rant

This is a rant but it’s how i feel its mostly random so it may be hard to understand

I don’t talk because my job only requires me to speak when spoken to about work related things. But when you make jokes that don’t make me laugh, then I wont force myself to laugh just to not offend you. I wont say random things just for the sake of saying random things. I also won’t laugh at jokes intended to take cheap jabs @ my personality even if you say “just joking” afterwards. I’d rather have you tell me how or what you really think of me as I’d gladly hear you out. I don’t need any new friends because i already have my close 2-3 friends who i joke amongst enough because we have the same sense of humor unlike you and me. I don’t join your circle because this is a fast food job and i don’t intend on being here for more than a year so it’d be kinda pointless. And since I screwed up in High School, I will be busy often trying to make up for lost time and therefore i don’t have much time to hangout even with my already established friends so much less you. And yes, your network is your networth but that doesnt mean your network is made up of friends it’s rather the establishment of “you scratch my back i scratch your back” so don’t attempt explaining how i may need you in the future because i don’t. I’m quiet because my mind is empty at work and i like it that way. I do have a sense of humor, as a matter of fact i laugh out loud when i watch episodes of Key and peele or Nacho Libre but your sense of humor is different from mine and I find it bland but I’m nice so i wont tell you that, I’ll simply stay silent so if that offends you then I’m sorry but maybe you’re being too sensitive. I also understand that humans are social beings so yes i do socialize as a matter of fact just not at work. I’d rather socialize when i don’t have to be interrupted by my boss and his “Get back to work!” yelling right before i was gonna finnish my story. I find it very annoying when my socializng is interrupted constantly by tasks at work so i default to not even trying and it feels so natural when i let work have its way.