they grew up. they are gone. i knew they would grow up but…… my little baby brothers arent little babies anymore. i just dont want to anymore. my brothers are my world. i spent the past 3 years trying to forget them so the pain could stop. i guess i made it no where. i cNan physically feel my insides being torn apart. i love those boys more then anything. i basically raised the oldest and i would have dont the same f or the youngest if it wasnt for his heart. i taught him his abc’s i taught him his colors and how to count. we would play sports. and now they are gone. i cant see them for 10 more years. i cant wait 10 years.