General by WITHINtheShadows 9/16/2018 written by WITHINtheShadows 9/16/2018May be commit suicide is the wisest thing to do. [!] Report this post Processing your request, Please wait....Report as: Choose one from belowRequesting Suicide PartnerDiscussing Specific Suicide MethodsHateful PostHateful or Inappropriate CommentsReligiousSpam or AdvertisingOtherWrite in Words: (Optional) 6 comments 0Related postsBeyond imagination… 7/16/2019Open Letter To A Friend 7/16/2019What ends up happening 7/15/2019I hate my mind and my body 7/15/2019Us 7/15/2019Protected: 7/15/2019Old Friends 7/15/2019The power of stories 7/15/2019I hate my life so much 7/15/2019Trashed 7/15/20196 comments fakehappy 9/16/2018 - 5:41 pmListen to cat power- hate. The lyrics are relevant. Trusss but alone best of luck, keep trying. Log in to Reply fakehappy 9/16/2018 - 5:41 pm*also Log in to Reply fakehappy 9/16/2018 - 5:42 pmI mean keep trying to live!! Log in to Reply OFFTheShadows 9/17/2018 - 6:18 amThank you for the song. Really good! 🙂 Log in to Reply day2day 9/17/2018 - 3:08 amYes suicide really is the wisest decision for some people. There were a few points in my life where it would’ve been the right choice but I pulled myself through those hard times. However, I’ve resolved never to go through needless suffering ever again, unless of course I know I’ll come out better than before.When you’re young, idealistic, driven then you see those terrible times as “learning experiences” and not an ‘existential beatdown’ to make you realize “life is bad and it’s going to get worse.” I had family and friends to help me through those tough times. But some days I wake up and realize if I didn’t have such people in my life, I wouldn’t want to live any longer.I also helped a few close people through tough times and I could never end my life (selfishly) knowing they were suffering or caught in their own hell-hole with no way out aside from someone like me to help them. Once I know they are in a good place and no longer need my help, I will leave in peace knowing they’ll be able to go on without me, that is if I ever decide to seriously end my life.At the same time, there are things I still love about life, esp girls and that’s still keeping me around and putting up with a lot of bs. Yes it’d be very easy-once you release your ‘mortal coil’ then you are free and at peace forever. But sometimes the hard struggle brings great benefits and rewards. And fortunately for now I’m doing ok, hopefully in a month or two, I’ll be doing even better in my life.But back to your point, there will be a day, hopefully, many years from now where I can say I finally did everything I set out to accomplish and I can die happy satisfied. For now, I still hunger for many things and experiences I’ve always wanted but that have been out of reach and that’s one of the reasons I’m still here.Oh, one other thing that’s kept me going is my “dreams,” goals I really want to accomplish-I have an interest in business and want to develop some ideas, that motivates me a great deal also. Log in to Reply day2day 9/17/2018 - 5:24 amI should’ve clarified by experiences I don’t mean something trivial like traveling which is ofc great in itself but not essential to having a good life. However, I mean, for example, I’ve never had one wholesome happy longterm relationship.There have always been problems and issues or they were flings or that our interest was more superficial and fleeting or misaligned. Initially, I plan to see a bunch of different girls (once I’m in a better financial position) but when I find a really great girl then I just want the experience of a normal stable realtionship that lasts at least a year or two, just to say to myself that I’ve had that and got it out of my system.I also want the kind of girl I dated in my early 20s, someone that turns heads, that gets us compliments from strangers. I never felt so alive and at the top of the world when I dated girls who were tens. I just took it for granted and thought I’d always have that but little did I know it’s a fairly rare kind of experience in one’s life if you’re lucky enough to have it.Looking back now it was like being in a dream, I never felt I was really “there” or enjoyed it as much as I should’ve. So I just want that feeling for someone once again. Ugh writing late at night like I’m drunk, I might regret posting this later. Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.