I always struggled with some sort of addiction ever since I was little. When I was little it was huffing sharpe markers. Im pretty sure every kid did that hah. Then when i was a pre-teen it was self harming. The usual cutting, scratching at myself until i bled, pinching, biting, etc. I was addicted to tormenting myself for 7 years. Of course, that stopped. But now as a fresh adult, i find myself leaning to a new addiction. Smoking. I do vape and i find it as a casual hobby rather than an addiction tbh. But the thing about cigs is that it feels like a warm and tight hug in my chest. I find comfort with each puff i take and I know it is harmful. I just say fuck it. I dont care about my health anymore. I know if i continue i will hurt myself from the inside out. But fuck it. i say that but at the same time i do care. I dont even know. Im just confused and conflicted.
Have you guys struggled with addiction? Any tips on how to control it?
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Dude I think you are being too hard on yourself. Its just cigs after all. Not saying cigs are good for you or anything (deffinitely better than harming yourself so theres progress!) lets be honest almost every person that I know has some form of unhealthy coping habbit. Its just human nature. I have tried many substances, even harder drugs but I never got addicted (sofar). I like to do coke occaisonally coz I like it more than alcohol (the harm of cocaine and alcohol is pretty comparable despite what all the propaganda says) but I have that under control. Im psychologicaly addicted to weed. I can stop smoking for a week easily with no withdrawls or anything but there is just no point in quitting weed long term for me currently. Its one of the few things I enjoy in this life and Its not even that harmful so fk it. If it makes me less misserable, doesnt create any financial problems (I grow my own), doesnt damage relationships with my family (my parrents are fine with me smoking), and it is not seriously harmful to my health (alcohol is like 100 times worse actually, if I was drinking as much as Im smoking I would be so fked up now) I dont see a reason to stop.
Could be worse.. You could be addicted to meth or something.
Use a patch to quit. You’ll still get that huggy cozy feeling. Then ween yourself off and run or something