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So I’m 18 now, and my boyfriend, well ex-boyfriend now, started living with me at my parents house after a whole messy thing where I ran away, got hospitalized. It was a mess, but now he broke up with me saying, and I quote, “I’m more than happy to say we are broken up for once”. The reason he said that is because he accused ME of cheating, like none of the bullshit he’s pulled in our relationship was worse than me just talking to a guy who used to be interested in me. Now he always reminds me about how we aren’t together by rubbing his new hook ups in my face, deleting everything about me, actually verbally reminding me that we aren’t together anymore, and just being a complete asshole in general. He still wants to sleep in the same fucking bed as me and stay here and use me and my family even though he doesn’t, and probably never did, love me. I’m not necessarily suicidal right now, just really fucking broken again and I just wish I wasn’t such an unlovable monster so that someone could love me and I won’t get hurt again. I’m trying everything not to cut myself and I’m barely holding on by a thread to resist it. I have to pretend everything is fine and try not to cry too loud so my parents don’t yell at me.
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So this guy is at your place even though you’re not together anymore ? Why ?
That sounds like a parasite (although I don’t know what the situation actually is), and someone who wants to feel better about themselves by showing off their hook ups to make you feel bad seems closer to an “unlovable monster” than you probably are…
He moved in with me and my family because he wanted to have a better living situation and work on our relationship, which was probably bullshit because nothing got better. I just have no one to talk to and I’m surrounded by the reminder that I wasn’t enough for him.
Uh… If he’s treating you like shit, why are you letting him stay in your parents’ house?
Also, one person’s bad treatment of you does not mean you are a worthless human being. It can feel that way, especially if you have repeated experiences of rejection in your life. Lots of people are insecure – even people you might never guess had anything to complain about.
I feel bad for you. All the best moving forwards.
My dad wants to kick him out because his ex-wife and my mom cheated on him so he can understand how hurt I feel and he doesn’t want me crying all the time and hates how Bryce has broken me some many fucking times and I give him chance after chance, but my mom doesn’t want to kick him out.
Does your mother know how he treats you? If she does, I feel like she’s putting his welfare before yours, and that doesn’t seem right.
It especially seems crazy that he is sleeping in your bed (or even your room) when you’re broken up and he is taunting you with his hookups.
Hope you find a solution, otherwise, at least you may be able to move out before long and do things more your own way.
Yeah she likes him more than me and she doesn’t give a shit about cheating since she thinks it’s okay and I am trying to figure out how I will move out once I graduate.
Damn, that sucks, but sounds good you plan to move out then. Also, maybe you just need something to take your mind off your ex? Do you have stuff you do outside of school?
No, the only thing I can do out of the house is go to school.
Why? Don’t your parents allow anything else? Are you too busy?
They don’t really allow me to go out and do anything because I did run away over the summer, but they have always been like that. So I’m trapped here with him and he pretty much told me today that he doesn’t really love me it was just him catching feelings too fast like he does with everyone, that’s what he said and then he wanted to have sex because I was upset and he said that was the only way he knew how to make me feel better. He keeps telling me I “need to cheer up”.
Uh… I really don’t want to sound mean, but it seems like this guy is using you. Sex to make you feel better? What… just what…
My ex recently broke up with me too. I’ve decided to cut him out of my life for now (because he lied). I’ll probably go back to him in time because I never learn!
I just don’t see any good coming out of this guy… just seems manipulative in my view.
Oh yeah I know he’s using me that’s all anyone ever does which I don’t understand how that keeps happening because I have really bad trust issues. Then today at school some group of guys came up to me because they heard I was single and they wanted me to fuck them and that basically just reassured to me that I am just an object for people to use I will never truly be loved, but that is why I want to get a dog so then maybe I won’t feel so alone and unlovable.
wouldn’t be a bad idea to get a dog, I did have one years ago… anyway aren’t they loyal and there for you, and don’t treat you badly… unlike many humans.
I almost feel inclined to ask… what kind of school would you have to go to for people to act like that? Or what area this is…?
Sounds like a really bad situation