I can’t stop falling asleep, no matter how much I try to stay awake I NEED TO SLEEP.
It could be my depression, but I’m not even sure as I have never been like this.
All I know is that I wake up and forget what day it is and the Earth around me feels unreal. I’m currently freaking out as it’s Saturday and I cannot even remember it being Monday!
Maybe I should stop staying awake until 2AM on the Internet. I have a real screwed up relationship with the Internet, I go aimlessly visiting websites for hours on end just to escape from my own problems. The longer I force myself to stay online, the more my head feels detached. And then I forget to eat, to sleep, to engage with my loved ones, etc.
I hate it, I hate the way I’m feeling and it scares me, but at the same time it’s the only control I have over my life.