May go super well or super bad

  September 21st, 2018 by EnslavedByShadows

This weekend and possibly next.. Depending on the outcome of the events will determine whether or not I go on for sure.. If the paranoia is true, I’m slashing my jugular and femoral on the spot.. I will not hesitate. The fate my brain tells me about is worse than death.. If not, I’m not going to give up suicide for good.. Here’s to a major deciding moment in my life… I just want to say I love you guys, and I appreciate all the support you guys have provided, the mutual understanding… I hope you all fly high  and I wish you all the best. I’ve found “God” if you wanna call it that, and I just may have found what we call love… But it all has the potential to come crashing down… I long for peace… Either way, I will reach it. I have the pre-suicide euphoria going on…. I love you guys – each and every one of you. I am now at the mercy of my Shadow…

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