I’m feeling so so bad that I’d try anything and in fact I will.
I heard a guy on youtube who said he was very depressed and tried to meditate in silence for 10 days in a spiritual retreat (budist style). Every day he spent 8 hours a day meditating with his eyes closed.
He told he got deeper and deeper in his mind till he deconstruct himself to the point he asked himself who he was, why and what to do when he discovered everything he believed true was a big lie.
The point is it hurted but he got better and got rid of depression understanding our society is a sh*it and he says he can live with that.
I’ll try. Not exactly like him but I’ll try bc I’m so bad and depressed that IDK what else to do.
No sleeping pills tonight so my mind will get clear tomorrow to try. Hope it works somehow!!