Yesterday I accepted one important thing about me: my refuge is death and I feel relieved when I think about suicide.
I dont believe in family or traditional shit like people do (career, sex, lust, expensive things, have kids, buy stuff, trips, etc.) And those things dont work for me as my refuge. They dont give me hope or energy.
My point of reference from where I can get some distance and evaluate life is death and suicide. I need to remember life ends. Besides that I believe in love, meditation,sports and Art.
I accepted death and my wish to suicide it’s part of me and I work in this way. Never again I’ll deny what I am. If others arent like that and think I’m a freak I dont care anymore.