To Mrs B.

  September 20th, 2018 by holdingonbyathread

Dear Mrs B,

I know the first time we met was far from easy for either of us. But I hope that somehow you were able to grow through what we went through on that day, as I am trying to do.

I don’t think you realise just how much I looked up to you. Having a masters degree is pretty impressive. You’re a really smart person and an amazing mum to your kids. I couldn’t think of a more caring, kind person who does what you do.

But just hear me out on one thing. Your brain and my brain couldn’t be more different, and we both see the world in our own unique ways. You know I love languages, and they are a very big part of both our lives. But it hurt so much when you told me that I’m not very smart because I don’t see texts the same way you do.

You see, I believe we read out of who we are. We bring ourselves to any text we are trying to interpret, study or learn from. Whether we are reading for school, fun, or to get to know the amazing people before us who helped get our world to where it is today, we all read texts and apply them to our lives in our own way.

I know you love dad as much as I do. Why wouldn’t we? He’s the one who brought us both into the world 🙂 But he, like you and I, has a very unique way of communicating. You see, he doesn’t talk to me like he does to you. But I don’t think that means that he loves or accepts me less than you.

You saw all the letters he’s been sending me. Sometimes they are hard to understand, and you see them differently than I do. I think dad struggles to relate to me at times, and you say it’s my fault. If I only trusted and loved him enough, he would be in my life,or so you tell me.

It’s really hard having a dad who won’t respond to my calls and explain how he’s feeling.  But know that I am doing my very best. Know that when I sit down and read one of his letters, I read how he’s feeling and I wish I could make it easy for him and be loved by him.

Anyway, I guess I just wanted to let you know how I’m feeling. You’ll probably never read this, but if you do, I hope this has shed some light on what’s going on in my head.

Love,

Your sister from the same Mr 🙂

 

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