I just want to be happy, I just want to be loved, I want all the things that normal people seem to have. I want to hold my wife while my children are in their bedroom. I want to be successful and never have to struggle financially in life, Sorrows are going to happen it is what it is. I just want to be loved I want my life to have some type of meaning. Ive lived 27 years I’ll be 28 in November, been a loser all my life an the only person in the world who truly loved me died 2 years ago. I wish I can go back and make a different choice I probably wouldn’t of come here. Maybe I can go further back then that an decide to have balls in my life an stand up for myself. So many great opportunities I missed, so many great opportunities I continue to miss, all I want in life and all those beautiful opportunities continue 2 to Pass me by. I don’t know what’s wrong with me I don’t know why I am the way I am, I wish it was just an easy solution to fix it I don’t know. It’s 5:10 in the morning im in the East Coast I’ve been drinking I just don’t know anymore. To all who read this I want you to know that I genuinely love you, I don’t know you but I do have love and empathy for you. Maybe it’ll get better maybe I’ll kill myself I don’t know, I just know I’m tired of being alone and I miss my mom.