its hard to look forward when you don’t know what to be looking at. I think I know what I want but it relies on other people, which I don’t trust because people always let me down. On my own I don’t have much to think of. I don’t want to be alone. Im miserable alone. Im miserable in general but I know for a fact being totally alone wouldn’t help. What do you do when you’re life relies on a few people /a person around you and without that person you don’t even care about life?