its late, and nothing bad happened today, and im thinking about how im going to kill myself.
im not even crying anymore, just thinking. weighing the options. what method will leave my body a mangled corpse versus a peaceful one, where i should go to make sure its not my brother who finds me, what ways will have the best likelihood of successfully ending my life and where i would be able to get the supplies for those methods.
im not looking for advice, it’s just strange and lonely to feel so clinical about something that should probably make me upset. it doesnt anymore.
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It reminds me of winter when you’re so cold u simply stop shivering
I’m thinking of my chosen method over and over