All my friends (except one) happen to be associates of my ex-boyfriend. After I broke up with him, I couldn’t even bear to look at him, let alone talk to him.
Naturally, I distanced myself from my ex, which resulted in me being distanced from my friends, too.
The thing is my friends started to ignore me. They seem to think that I’m the bad one, when in fact it was probably none of me or my ex’s fault.
So, here I am. F*cking alone.
I have no one on whom I can rely.
I know that only when I tell them what really happened would I be able to erase all misunderstandings about me. However, I can’t. Revealing my relationship is a big no-no for my ex. And I’m not that creul to reveal that secret while risking him being shunned by his family.
This so sounds like a petty problem, I know. But sometimes I guess you need to relieve stress induced by these little problems somewhere. I mean, you can’t always bottle up this petty emotions in yourself, right?
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No, bottling them up is exactly the thing, that kills slowly. It’s weird that your friends are distancing themselves from you. Since it’s actually not about them. If they want to stay on his side, then they don’t really deserve you. Even though I understand, it hurts to be ignored by the closest around you. Maybe your friends need some time to figure out, how to suddenly be alone with either you or your ex. Just, that you prefer to be true and keep the secret instead of clearing it all up is making you a good person. The good path is never the easiest. I hope that they’ll return or that you find some friends, who don’t get corrupted by anything else.! Let’s hope the friend who stayed by your side can make up for many friends.~ Lonely days will come.
your friends suck.