So I only stopped writing on here because I thought I was blocked.
Wrong user name.
It’s been about 2 years since I posted last.
I don’t have any hope for yall. I still wanna die.
Lately, “I just wanna die” just keeps repeating in my head. I know that’s usually just the beginning. That’s the calm before the storm.
I had a 3 tiered method set up not even a year ago. I’m still here and trying to be positive but it’s not working.
I left the relationship I was in but not before I was raped, had a gun pulled on me, and pushed through a window.
My ex husband ripped custody of my first born from me.
I’m in a new relationship now and he knows about how I feel and actually knows about my posts on here. I don’t want him to have to deal with my pain… He might even read this one. Idk.
The 4th anniversary of my suicide attempt is coming up. I’m not happy to be here.