My mom asked me today if I thought going into inpatient would help me. I never realized people actually went into inpatient outside of movies. I’m definitely not bad enough for it but it kind of made me realize just how much I scare her. It’s been a rough day at my house and hopefully she forgets about what she saw on my computer earlier, which confirmed her worst fear. I don’t trust myself and she now knows that and it’s terrifying.